Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Scary as You Know What . . .

Let me preface this by saying that I never curse. Seriously, I just don't do it. I mean while I was having Caden, I was 9cm dilated and the epidural wasn't working and I told Adam - this hurts like S-H-I-T, except I literally spelled it instead of saying it. So when I say that a few hours ago was scary as hell, I mean it.

Adam and I went back to the hospital and were sitting there watching our little boy, literally watching his heart beat. We were just marveling at how much pee was coming out of him and I said it was because SO SO many people were praying for him to pee! We were even joking around a little with the nurses about how one of his doctors looks like papa smurf and we were thinking about having Jayci color a picture of papa smurf to hang on his crib to see if anyone else noticed the resemblance . . . The nurses had to refill all his medications, which they do once a day. We watched them meticulously prepare and then put ALL the different medications in the lines. When they did, his blood pressure plummeted. They had been fairly stable at around 50 and dropped quickly down into the teens. Alarms were going off and doctors were coming over and nurses were sticking Caden with different medications to try and bring his blood pressure back up. They called for an echo machine and were peering into his chest. Adam and I were just sitting there frozen. I was trying to pray but all I could think was "please God" over and over. Finally, they bumped his epinephrine to more than 3 times the amount he was getting, and finally the blood pressure went back up. The surgeon who performed his surgery came over, and they determined that the cause of the drop was not anything wrong with the heart, but rather a result of the medication having a slight lag time when they refreshed them (meaning for a split second he received no medication). It was terrifying to think that's what would happen to his little tiny heart if he didn't have all those medications running through him.

Everything in the CICU is a matter of life and death, so it makes for quite the emotional roller coaster. Adam and I were both scared and shaky, and I still feel sick to my stomach just thinking about it. Please pray that his blood pressure will remain stable and high enough, also pray that the higher dose of epinephrine wont cause his heart to go back into JET rhythm. And that his body will get adjusted to all his "new plumbing" so that they can slowly wean him off all the medications.

Thank you for your prayers. I feel comforted knowing how covered we are. Honestly, the thought crossed my mind at some point in that chaos that I should send a twitter to get everyone to pray, but I was too frozen with fear to do anything.
 

13 comments:

  1. Oh gosh!!!! Praying for healing for his sweet heart!!!!!

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  2. I am so sorry that you had to witness that...so scary! I am glad that they got Caden stabilized. Your faithfulness through all of this is amazing, Becca. Continuing to pray for all of y'all!

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  3. Saying a prayer for you and Caden right now.

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  4. Praying. Praying. Praying. Your faith through all of this is amazing.

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  5. So scary. Continuing to pray for you and that sweet boy.

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  6. I don't know you..or anyone you know probably. I found you today via a blog I read of someone else I don't know. Just wanted you to know that someone in NC is praying for you both and both of your kids.

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  7. I cannot imagine ... so so scary. But thank you, God, for the amazing doctors and nurses taking care of sweet Caden. Praying for healing.

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  8. Hi, you don't know me but I have a 3 year old daughter who had the same CoArc surgery at 7 days old, along with a VSD and ASD repair. We went through similar post op situations, but GOD IS GOOD, and she is now a thriving little blessing! Sending prayers your way!

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  9. just said another prayer for your beautiful babe.

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  10. Continuing to pray.
    Thankful for all the wonderful people who care for your sweet baby.
    I am in awe of how you handle this situation right now.

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  11. Oh Becca.
    I cry and cry for you.
    Praying every moment.

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  12. Don't worry about tweeting, friend. I'm pretty sure Caden's covered in prayer at 24-7 at this point, from the looks of FB, your Twitter and here :) God's got this, we're all praying and I just wants you and Adam to feel like you can be 100% present with Caden in moments like that. Maybe give a family member who's there your Twitter info so they can do it IF (big if, 'cause we're all praying for rest for his little heart!) there's another crisis moment like that? Lifting you up all day, so encouraged by your faith...

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  13. praying praying praying, friend. we understand first hand how scary, and how much of a roller coaster, each day can be in the NICU, but we are sending so many prayers and love, and God is in control and has a plan. Xoxox

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