Friday, August 22, 2008

A Father's Love

So yesterday, I finally watched the clip of Steven Curtis Chapman on Good Morning America (I know, I'm a little behind the curve). It was absolutely heart-rending and encouraging at the same time to watch their family as they struggled through doubts, faith and forgiveness and how they are continuing to rest in God's faithfulness, despite the hurt. I cannot even imagine how I would respond or what I would do. Their situation is one of those times when I look up at the sky and wonder what in the world God's plan is. For those of you who dont know the story, Steven Curtis Chapman's youngest daughter Maria was killed when she was hit by a car driven by her older brother, Will Franklin.

Lets face it, I'm pregnant, so I bawled through the entire 8 minutes of the clip (or however long it is) However, there was one part in particular that I haven't been able to get off my mind or heart. As Steven (Curtis Chapman - but we're clearly on a first name basis) was getting ready to go to the hospital with his daughter, he rolled down the window and yelled out to his son (the one who was driving the car) "Will Franklin, your father loves you!"

Oh my word, the depth of emotion and grace that is extended in that moment. I cannot think of a more beautiful picture of how our heavenly Father reaches out to us. I've wounded Him, He's saddened by what I've done, and I've cost Him His Son -- and yet, He yells out to me "Rebecca Anne - your Father loves you!"

When I am most disappointed in myself, most unwilling or unable to carry on, to simply put one foot in front of the other; that is exactly when God yells my name and shouts His love. In the times when I struggle with my many insecurities and shortcomings, and I wonder how anyone could love me -- it is in those exact moments that I can hear God yelling (or sometimes whispering) that He loves ME. Not a collective "you," not all of mankind. But ME, Rebecca Anne . . . . my Father loves me. Now, if that's not life-changing, I don't know what is.

“See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands.” Isaiah 49:16

ps - my thoughts today were inspired by my friend BigMama

Oh and by the way, Steven Curtis Chapman and his wife must be SO proud of how Godly and wise and mature their three oldest children are - and how strong their faith is through this tragedy . . . I pray that Jayci will have that kind of faith someday!

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